Why I Resigned
A Mousebumples Tell-All
A Mousebumples Tell-All
As I stated in my resignation post, there are a number of factors that led to my resignation. Truthfully, Real Life is keeping me busy – and Real Life should always come before an internet game. Family stuff is good, boyfriend/relationship stuff is good, so that in turn, leads to less free time to spend on NationStates and Europeia.
However, that is a smaller part of why I resigned – maybe less than 25% of the true reason. I've debated whether or not I should share this information publicly. As a Supreme Chancellor of Europeia, I feel that it is my duty to put the needs of Europeia before my own desire for fairness or full disclosure. However, the malfeasance within the current administration has reached the point where I feel the need to be as clear and up-front as I can with what has gone down during recent administrations of President Writinglegend.
I'll begin during President Writinglegend's first set of Presidential terms. During, I believe, his second term (late summer 2015), there were a number of FA missteps that I'm unable to go into great detail about publicly, given that the conversations regarding these incidents were predominantly held in the EAAC. Of note, however, is a notable diplomatic incident with TNP, that resulted in notable cooling in relations between our regions, until this joint statement was issued.
Towards the end of that thread, McEntire asks for more details about what happened. The lack of further follow-up and explanation in response from the Presidential administration to detail what went down was and still is disappointing to me. However, a large portion of the details can be found here, for those that have access to the TNP forums and wish to gain more information on the subject.
As a backstory – and this is information I received through unofficial channels – the complaint was posted to TNP with only limited contact being made to the MoFA and Delegate of TNP prior to posting. Amping up the outrage to 11 straight out the gate, rather than continuing to pursue more diplomatic options, caused serious damage to our relations. Our relationship with TNP was only improved later that fall, through continual efforts from those of us that were not carrying a grudge and wanted to repair our relationship with one of our historic allies. I expressed my disapproval over how things were handled that resulted in such severe damage to our relations with TNP, and it was not well received.
I later learned that still-President Writinglegend expressed an interest in wanting to remove me from the EAAC since he didn't want me involved in his FA discussions. Of course, given that I was the WA Delegate, and I have an expansive network of FA contacts, that wasn't really feasible. Now that I'm no longer WA Delegate, I'm wondering how much longer that I'll be in EAAC for the rest of President Writinglegend's term.
Skip ahead to his his recently completed Presidential term. At the start of the term, it became obvious that there was a noticeable drop in activity in the Cabinet-related Discord channels that we have. Hypothetically, this would be associated with a noticeable uptick in forum activity - because more planning is going on there instead. That was not the case.
Instead, President Writinglegend - along with a number of his Ministers - created their own Discord servers for their own use, further splintering our community and making it harder to for casual players to stay involved unless they want to join multiple Discord servers. Additionally, there has been a notable lack of posting in the EAAC this term about FA affairs. I won't go into detail about what all has been discussed - after all, that would break all sorts of Protected Area laws - but there's plenty that hasn't been discussed there that must be planned elsewhere. Updates about how the CAIN conference was winding down? Discussion on how to best disseminate our agreement on CAIN? Details on discussions with new regions to form partnerships or working arrangements? (*Minus a thread that I started in EAAC after I received a telegram from a WA Delegate of a region. Note, however, that no information has been provided by the FA team in EAAC about what - if any - follow-up has been conducted after I shared that telegram with them.)
In my view, the EAAC serves a few purposes within our region that are vital for ensuring our FA interests when we transition from President to President and generation to generation. It provides an avenue for newer FA members to learn more about the background of our region. There is also a super-seekrit EAAC archive (that I don't even have access to!), but if there's an older thread that's relevant now, it can be moved back to provide greater background on a recurring situation.
The current situation - where next to nothing happens in EAAC and only happens on off-site chat programs - offers nothing to the next administration and is needlessly hampering our future FA affairs. Additionally - and I suspect this is a large part of the motivation - it allows them to keep me out of FA issues and also ensures that the same "ruling class of the FA" continues to be in power with regards to decision making. To be clear, this "ruling class" is an amalgamation of both new and old players (or Old and New Guard perhaps). I use the term "ruling class" because outside opinions (read: pushback against Administration mishaps) are generally dismissed if heard, if not actively avoided, and some content is completely omitted from the EAAC in favor of private advice from a handful of players, at best, on Skype or Discord.
Similarly, he appears to have taken a similar approach with his Ministers. There is minimal content being posted to Tomlinson, and while I can't legally disclose what has been posted there, I saw nothing in the posted content with regards to the Spam Accords or other WA Ministry related content after Malashaan lapsed into inactivity. However, if discussions were continuing to occur on off-site forums, failing to copy that information over to the forum for continuity purposes for the next administration and also for historical purposes, puts Europeia at a disadvantage both within this specific context, but also in ensuring that the next Presidential administration understands what we have been doing over the course of the previous term.
I've kept silent on a lot of this, as I've said above, because I wasn't sure that it was in the best interests of Europeia to have this conversation. However, as multiple high-level Europeians have shared with me, there's too many problems with the current Presidential administration (*including the previous term) that aren't being focused on or addressed, and they need a Come to Jesus moment.
Here are a few facts that need to be acknowledge and discussed and resolved, moving forward:
1. President Writinglegend needs to improve his interpersonal communication skills.
There are certainly a number of examples of this, but fresh in mind are a few from recent months that are fresh in my mind:
a) During the lead-up to Z-Day, I contacted Writinglegend to see about adding more Border Control officers to remove zombie-focused nations that were not citizens. I got the okay to add more BC nations to eject known puppets that were only there to wreak zombie-related havoc. I then ejected a few nations (including an alt of Notolecta - but not his main citizenship nation). Notolecta objected, saying that he was told he was fine to revive and move in puppets to spread zombies - which is the opposite of what I had heard from Writinglegend previously. As President, if Writinglegend had wanted to allow/encourage zombie-fying, that's fine. However, his lack of clarity on that point due to poor communication only made things worse in the proverbial heat of the moment on Z-Day and led to unnecessary conflict that could have been easily avoided with improved communication.
b) In the lead up to the first Commend Benevolent Thomas, Writinglegend messaged me to express concerns with the Commendation. In my continued view, he exaggerated the shortcomings of the text and failed to disclose the actual FA problem with the commendation - that The Gray Wardens are/were R/D opponents of ours. When I proceeded to read the commendation text and share with him my concerns over his assessment - including my plan to support the commendation in the voting thread - I got zero response back. I waited over 12 hours before posting the Europeian voting threads, mistakenly believing that a lack of response (since I'd seen him active on Discord elsewhere) meant that he agreed. That unwillingness to defend his argument to me directly is a failure of communication that is unfitting a President of Europeia.
c) President Writinglegend has, apparently, been against the Spam Accords for a long time. If that's the case, one would think that would have been communicated with me, the sitting WA Delegate, at some point in the month-plus that has passed since the posting of the Discussion Topic on the WA Spam Agreement. (You'll note that Writinglegend never posted in that linked thread, so his opinion on the matter was a mystery to me.) Better yet, if President Writinglegend was against it, one would think that he would have moved to repeal it or perhaps had a discussion in the EAAC about repealing it. (But, once again, that would require his FA administration to actually use the EAAC.)
2. President Writinglegend and Grand Admiral Kraken need to stop trying to "get revenge" on people who dare to challenge them.
A bit of backstory here, for those that weren't around for the June/July 2016 elections. Current President Calvin Coolidge was running for re-election. His Vice President, Malashaan, had gone missing midway through the term and was never officially removed or replace. From outward appearances, President Calvin seemed to think that things were going quite well. So well in fact, that in the view of many of us, he was taking re-election for granted and not engaging with critiques of citizens in his platform thread.
After discussion with a few individuals, Trinnien and HEM decided to run against Calvin, in what ended up being a crowded field. During this time, I also advocated (with both Trinnien and Calvin) against maintaining Kraketopia as Minister of Foreign Affairs, as I felt that a number of things had fallen by the wayside during the previous term and that it was time to move on to the next generation in Europeian FA.
Kraketopia was less than pleased with me, and tried to strong-arm his way into Trinnien's cabinet. When that didn't work, he followed up with applying for citizenship in Osiris (note the timing - days after polls closed) while we were still in the midst of hostilities against Osiris. I can't speak to his motivations, of course, but it's incredibly suspicious, in my view, given that any sort of espionage (for example) seems doomed to fail given that he gave his actual name and identity on his citizenship application. Was he planning to abandon Europeia for her adversary out of spite? Was he planning to give intel to Osiris and Cormac to ensure that Trinnien's Presidency was doomed to fail? Or, as some theorized while this was being handled - primarily behind closed doors - was it simply an immature "screw you" to the members in Europeia that may have slighted him?
As the term continued, I got the distinct impression that I was in "disfavor" with their clique from that point on. This continued, with them looking for opportunities to try to exact revenge for not trying to curry their favor.
Regarding the Commend Benevolent Thomas example referenced above, President Writinglegend never reached out to me via Discord or other avenues to explain what I was overlooking, with regards to our FA affairs and that commendation. Instead, he and others looked at that as a proper time to set an example about what happens when someone in Europeia dares to speak their opinion and oppose their Presidential administration. As detailed by Malashaan and Anumia, I did nothing wrong, and trying to politically tar me for daring to have an opinion is 100% un-Europeian. We should be a better region than that. (But the value of a minority opinion is a topic for a different editorial.)
Lest I be accused of having a persecution complex, I've also seen this desire for revenge being aimed at Ninja Kittens and Aexnidaral, and to a lesser extent, Sopo, after Ninja Kittens and Sopo (with campaigning help from Aexnidaral) came *thisclose* to beating out Kraketopia/Trinnien in the December 2015 Presidential race. Aexnidaral was further tarred as a traitor for collaborating on the Trinnien/Calvin Coolidge Presidential campaign (April 2016) when he decided to run with HEM as his Vice President. I remember individuals within that clique being shocked when Writinglegend decided to run with him for President in September of this year. Additionally, there were rumblings in October that Aexnidaral might be staging a run for President in the most recent elections, possibly competing against his current running mate. Remarks of him being "power hungry" were bandied about with individuals I spoke with at the time.
I know better than anyone how easy it can be to get caught up in this mentality of Us against Them, as I've found myself caught up in those details within the aforementioned paragraph. For me, that ends now. We need to be better than that, stronger than that, and to encourage competing ideas and stronger candidates for higher office running against each other.
Electoral competition gives us stronger candidates, better Presidents, and overall better leadership for Europeia. The last time Writinglegend faced, in my opinion, actual opposition for the Goldenblock was before his first term, when he faced off against McEntire/Brunhilde. Since then, his opposition has been comprised of joke campaigns or newcomers that are unable to mount a serious challenge. As Rach detailed in The Globe, we need more challengers and more contested elections. However, if individuals see revenge sought or meted out against political opponents of a certain ruling clique, that discourages dissent, especially from those that are hoping to have political success in the future.
Fortunately, I am beyond my days of running for office in Europeia, so now I can call out this behavior for what it is. It's not against the laws of our region, but we are better than this - and we should expect better than this from our elected officials.
3. Dissent is Europeian, and diversity makes us stronger as a region and community.
As I've been discussing the recent events with various people over the past few days, a similar refrain has come up more than a few times. The aforementioned individuals don't like being challenged, in terms of having to defend their stances or opinions. They don't like dealing with dissent. Those who stand up to them often find themselves steamrolled or targeted for the aforementioned revenge.
With regards to the Commend Benevolent Thomas example detailed above, I wish we had been able to have a frank conversation about what standards we should use to judge Commendations. Should all decisions be made solely based on our FA interests? Or, is there a time and place where it's worth working with individuals on the "other side" (i.e. defenders) to recognize players that have contributed a lot to the game over the years? We clearly believe that there are some occasions where cooperation is worthwhile (i.e. the recent CAIN agreement), but what other situations merit such cooperation?
We never really had that conversation, and there are so many discussions that should be had more in the public sphere rather than being limited to Discord or Skype chats. How can we improve our integration program? Why did we decide to move towards a closer partnership with 4. President Writinglegend and his Cabinet need to take responsibility for how their own actions resulted in the detriment of our WA authority and perception abroad.
The Minister of World Assembly Affairs position was created to be the connection between the Executive and the WA Delegate. This worked great in practice ... for a few weeks. Near the start of the term, Malashaan and I had a great discussion about where things were and where things should go. We discussed WALL, the Spam Accords (including a discussion where we agreed that we needed to post to Gameplay), and more WA related topics. However, when Malashaan got busy and wasn't active on Europeia - once again - he was not removed or replaced, and my contact with the administration ceased due to what I then perceived as an overall indifference with regards to WA Affairs. I now believe that was an actual attempt to create plausible deniability, which would allow them to blame me for anything and everything they could throw at me.
Yes, I acknowledge that I screwed up by not alerting our FA officials before I posted to Gameplay. However, I alerted my WA channel (which hypothetically included Malashaan, though I don't know if he ever logged on to see the message), and I alerted individuals within TNP and Europe about the posting shortly after I made it. Additionally, I posted to the #worldassembly channel on Discord right after making the post, so FA-oriented individuals were alerted shortly after the post was made.
I thought about making a big stink over all of this during the recent elections, but the lack of a credible challenger made me question that thinking, and - eventually - made me elect to not push on that point at that time. However, the fact that I am being asked to accept 100% of the blame when there is plenty to go around is not something I am willing to stand for any longer. Europeia deserves a full accounting of all of the malfeasance that has gone on within our region and our inner Foreign Affairs circles over the past year and a half, and I hope that Europeian citizens will demand an accounting from their elected representatives.
I have given a lot to Europeia over my years as a citizen; I've given my time, energy, and ideas. I remade the Interior Ministry, when appointed there by President Anumia. I improved our recruitment telegrams, positively impacted our retention strategy. In coordination with Elias Greyjoy, I compiled WA 101 coursework that provides a how-to on authoring a GA resolution. Upon being elected as WA Delegate, I worked to improve our region's WA membership - including getting more WA nations to join the ERN or Volunteers - and regularly Endotarted to improve my own endorsement count so I would have a stronger impact on behalf of Europeia's interests. I coordinated the widely successful Women & NS Symposium that invited participation and interaction with players from all across NationStates. I was selected by Lethen to join him as Supreme Chancellor because of all that I've done for and given to Europeia.
I didn't want to turn my resignation thread into a circus, so I didn't say this then. I've kept quiet about the concerns expressed here for well over a year because I kept hoping that things would improve, that the situation would change. They haven't, and I think it's time for all Europeians to understand the details that I've outlined above.
The primary reason why I resigned as WA Delegate is because I did not want to tolerate another 10 weeks of this treatment - of poor communication, of being scapegoated for things that I am not solely responsible for, of being accused of not doing my job by daring to have a different opinion. When I don't really want to check in every day because I don't want to see what I'm being blamed for this time, Europeia and NationStates stop being fun. My drop in activity over the past few weeks had largely been due to an overwhelming sense of dread, which in turn, led to my resignation.
I'll end this longer-than-anticipated missive with a congratulations to President Writinglegend and Grand Admiral Kraketopia. You got me out of your way and exacted revenge for daring to support a challenger to Calvin and discouraging the appointment of Kraketopia as Minister of Foreign Affairs months ago. Too bad that you ended up - in Anumia's words - in "a FA fiasco." It could have been prevented and avoided if not for the primary issues that I outlined above.
I'm done being silent. I may have made the post that led to these issues; however, the root cause for the problems ties back to the poor communication and desire for revenge that ended up costing Europeia on the international stage.
Revel in your revenge. I hope it was worth it."> ?
Healthy disagreement is a good thing, as it's a great way to explore avenues that might otherwise be ignored. Players with different backgrounds, experiences, and perspectives are useful and help make us a better and stronger region. We've stagnated as a region and plateaued, when we should have continued to soar. Stifling dissent within our inner FA and Executive circles is one possible explanation, and one that we should strive to rectify moving forward.
4. President Writinglegend and his Cabinet need to take responsibility for how their own actions resulted in the detriment of our WA authority and perception abroad.
The Minister of World Assembly Affairs position was created to be the connection between the Executive and the WA Delegate. This worked great in practice ... for a few weeks. Near the start of the term, Malashaan and I had a great discussion about where things were and where things should go. We discussed WALL, the Spam Accords (including a discussion where we agreed that we needed to post to Gameplay), and more WA related topics. However, when Malashaan got busy and wasn't active on Europeia - once again - he was not removed or replaced, and my contact with the administration ceased due to what I then perceived as an overall indifference with regards to WA Affairs. I now believe that was an actual attempt to create plausible deniability, which would allow them to blame me for anything and everything they could throw at me.
Yes, I acknowledge that I screwed up by not alerting our FA officials before I posted to Gameplay. However, I alerted my WA channel (which hypothetically included Malashaan, though I don't know if he ever logged on to see the message), and I alerted individuals within TNP and Europe about the posting shortly after I made it. Additionally, I posted to the #worldassembly channel on Discord right after making the post, so FA-oriented individuals were alerted shortly after the post was made.
I thought about making a big stink over all of this during the recent elections, but the lack of a credible challenger made me question that thinking, and - eventually - made me elect to not push on that point at that time. However, the fact that I am being asked to accept 100% of the blame when there is plenty to go around is not something I am willing to stand for any longer. Europeia deserves a full accounting of all of the malfeasance that has gone on within our region and our inner Foreign Affairs circles over the past year and a half, and I hope that Europeian citizens will demand an accounting from their elected representatives.
I have given a lot to Europeia over my years as a citizen; I've given my time, energy, and ideas. I remade the Interior Ministry, when appointed there by President Anumia. I improved our recruitment telegrams, positively impacted our retention strategy. In coordination with Elias Greyjoy, I compiled WA 101 coursework that provides a how-to on authoring a GA resolution. Upon being elected as WA Delegate, I worked to improve our region's WA membership - including getting more WA nations to join the ERN or Volunteers - and regularly Endotarted to improve my own endorsement count so I would have a stronger impact on behalf of Europeia's interests. I coordinated the widely successful Women & NS Symposium that invited participation and interaction with players from all across NationStates. I was selected by Lethen to join him as Supreme Chancellor because of all that I've done for and given to Europeia.
I didn't want to turn my resignation thread into a circus, so I didn't say this then. I've kept quiet about the concerns expressed here for well over a year because I kept hoping that things would improve, that the situation would change. They haven't, and I think it's time for all Europeians to understand the details that I've outlined above.
The primary reason why I resigned as WA Delegate is because I did not want to tolerate another 10 weeks of this treatment - of poor communication, of being scapegoated for things that I am not solely responsible for, of being accused of not doing my job by daring to have a different opinion. When I don't really want to check in every day because I don't want to see what I'm being blamed for this time, Europeia and NationStates stop being fun. My drop in activity over the past few weeks had largely been due to an overwhelming sense of dread, which in turn, led to my resignation.
I'll end this longer-than-anticipated missive with a congratulations to President Writinglegend and Grand Admiral Kraketopia. You got me out of your way and exacted revenge for daring to support a challenger to Calvin and discouraging the appointment of Kraketopia as Minister of Foreign Affairs months ago. Too bad that you ended up - in Anumia's words - in "a FA fiasco." It could have been prevented and avoided if not for the primary issues that I outlined above.
I'm done being silent. I may have made the post that led to these issues; however, the root cause for the problems ties back to the poor communication and desire for revenge that ended up costing Europeia on the international stage.
Revel in your revenge. I hope it was worth it.